Friday, June 29, 2012

from my journal - 6/27/12

Today my heart is full - full of love, full of excitement and full of anticipation. The Kenya 1 team got back earlier this week and pictures and videos are being posted like crazy! Also, my friend Lindsey is currently in Kenya at Naomi's Village. Seeing pictures and reading posts makes me long to be there with the children. Sometimes I think my heart is so full with love for them that it might burst. Today is one of those days.

I've noticed that my emotions towards Africa are kind of like riding waves. On days like today I find myself so excited that I can hardly stand it,  but I know in a few days or weeks I will find myself distracted, pushing my thought of Africa aside for seemingly more important things. But then, soon after that something will draw my attention back to Africa and I'll be on top of my "wave" again.

This is just a testament to how inconsistent emotions are. I am so thankful that my God is a God of consistency and steadfastness. When I waver He is steady, constantly drawing me to himself.

Lord, Help me to trust in your steadfast and consistent nature. Remind me that even though it may not be at the forefront of my mind, you are calling me to something in Africa. Reveal that calling.